I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

ABC

This is going to be my accountability page for the ABC diet. I will color code the days based on my intake,
YELLOW will be the days that I follow what limit is set that day.
ORANGE will be the days that I go over my intended limit for the day, but can still save it (through exercise).
RED will be the days that I just entirely ruin my calorie allowance. Hopefully there won't be too many of those.

This kind of works in two ways. because my favorite color combination is orange and yellow. They are pretty together, and bright (which has always meant happy and good in my mind). So of course I hope to avoid the red, but I have to be realistic. I am not perfect yet.
I am doing this for my own sake, for structure as well as peace. I will post my weights during the course of this, and the idea is that I can track my progress on the days I did really good or okay or even bad and match them up hopefully with my blog posts to see what triggers me the most. To basically learn my body better.

So here goes.
Start date: 11/4/2014
End date: 12/24/2014

Day 1: 500 calories
Day 2: 500 calories
Day 3: 300 calories
Day 4: 400 calories
Day 5: 100 calories
Day 6; 200 calories
Day 7: 300 calories
Day 8: 400 calories
Day 9: 500 calories
Day 10: fast
Day 11: 150 calories
Day 12: 200 calories
Day 13: 400 calories
Day 14: 350 calories
Day 15: 250 calories
Day 16: 200 calories
Day 17: fast
Day 18: 200 calories
Day 19: 100 calories
Day 20: fast
Day 21: 300 calories
Day 22: 250 calories
Day 23: 200 calories
Day 24: 150 calories
Day 25: 100 calories
Day 26: 50 calories
Day 27: 100 calories
Day 28: 200 calories
Day 29: 200 calories
Day 30: 300 calories
Day 31: 800 calories
Day 32: fast
Day 33: 250 calories
Day 34: 350 calories
Day 35: 450 calories
Day 36: fast
Day 37: 500 calories
Day 38: 450 calories
Day 39: 400 calories
Day 40: 350 calories
Day 41: 300 calories
Day 42: 250 calories
Day 43: 200 calories
Day 44: 200 calories
Day 45: 250 calories
Day 46: 200 calories
Day 47: 300 calories
Day 48: 200 calories
Day 49: 150 calories
Day 50: fast

Here is to attempt one of organized whatever this is. (:

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