I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Fuuuuck

I'm struggling right now, or am I ever not?
The past week wasn't so bad, but today is. I got to work about 2 hrs early and they wouldn't let me clock in. So instead of going to get coffee, I got a snack. Bad idea. I had a panic attack and ended up hiding in the bathroom at work for a few minutes, and now I'm outside smoking a cigarette and trying to calm my nerves.

I don't know what to do with myself. I am stuck feeling this "fight or flight" reaction and I don't know how I'm gonna get through work. I already want to cry. I'm scared but I can't even identify what I am afraid of. I just want to go home.

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2 comments:

  1. cursum perficioDecember 8, 2015 at 11:24 PM

    Sounds like a panic attack to me; I wish I could help :/

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  2. BellaDecember 9, 2015 at 9:49 AM

    :( Sorry to hear you're having a hard day. Would you be able to get a medical certificate if you need to go home?

    *hugs*
    xxxx

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