Fuck School/Graduation

I'm so over school. I just don't think I can take much more of this stress, and the hard part hasn't even come yet.

I was failing AP Lit and I went and talked to my teacher, and he basically gave me until the end of today to turn everything in. He assigned two essays that were due yesterday, huge assignments. I wasn't done, and he gave me a slight extension.

I was up until 3am this morning writing my essay, and I was hoping to at least get partial credit. About an hour after I turned it in, he handed it back and told me he wouldn't even grade it because everything about it was incorrect, and it basically sucked.

So that was all for nothing.

I'm quite a bit crushed right now... I can't believe it.

I was hoping to enjoy my weekend, and I suppose I still will try. But having that hang over my head is definitely not going to be possible to ignore.

I have so much work in school right now that there just isn't enough time to do it all. How can they expect us students to complete it all?

My weight is pretty much staying the same, but I'm planning to fast from 9am today to the end of Sunday. If I do well on this essay and my assignments for that class, only then will I be allowed to rest and eat.

I feel like I talk about school a lot here, and I don't like it. But school is literally my life right now. It's pretty much the cause of all of my stress, all of my thoughts, everything.

I have a little less than 2 1/2 months until my graduation. That scares the shit out of me. But all I can do is accept it and graduate. I will be the first person in my family to graduate high school.

That's a tripp. How is that possible?

Anyways, that's just an overview of my life right now.. I need the weekend to come, but at the same time I don't want it to.