I'm always so negative, I know. But I can't find anything to feel positive about. Don't get me wrong, there's times when I don't feel so shitty, but I wouldn't exactly call it happiness.
Yesterday was one of those days, until about 5pm. My dad called me at work to tell me that my dog had gotten trapped in my room because aparently my door didn't latch, but when the heater turns on it sucks my door shut. And since he was trapped he ate my blinds, pissed on the carpet and tore up 2 feet of carpet in front of my door trying to get out. And as if it was my fault, he told me that I have to pay for it.

I pawned something this morning because I don't have any money to even buy food until Thrsday, but even then I have to give pretty much my whole check to my dad.

I freaked out and started crying and my bf tried telling me to calm down... but I was just super upset.

I guess one positive is that I got a raise at my work, so I am excited to start seeing how it impacts my check. It wasn't a huge raise, but a raise is a raise, right?

I don't even know what to say. I grew close to someone on IG and they're trying to kill themselves. I can't even stop them because their life is truly horrible. They don't deserve to have to keep living in the state they're in. But it just makes me sad, because I cared about them. I really shouldn't let myself care.

In the pic with the carpet, from the white part to my feet is where it's ruined.