I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

Feelin' Good

I went to the gym today. I trained for a total of 4.5 miles, and burned 592 calories.
Before I went to the gym though, I ate a bunch of French fries, half of a veggie burger, and I had a banana milkshake. I know, I know...
Terrible.

Which is why I made it my goal to burn at least 600 cals. I came pretty close, and I feel a little better about what I ate.
Being a vegetarian is going really well. I haven't eaten meat or wanted to even in a while now. I don't even know how long it's been since I became a vegetarian, but I feel good. 

My ED and I are on the same page for once, and I can't say I mind it. I graduate in less than 6 months, I go to college, and I see my boyfriend again. All of which    I NEED to be skinny for. 108 lbs, at least. So I'm down to do it! I feel like this gym thing could become a pretty regular thing. If it does, then I should e able to lose weight steadily. Maybe even here soon I can get myself a gym membership, and not have to depend on my friend to get me in for free. Who knows, but I definitely love this feeling.
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  1. Fat PiggyJanuary 9, 2014 at 12:40 PM

    I actually found that becoming a veggie helped me to control my ED a lot better. Like a LOT better. I found that even if I binged, i didn't feel as big or that I didn't eat as many calories. Being vegan is even more awesome!! But, one thing at a time! Good fucking job though on the run!! Xo

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    1. J (:January 9, 2014 at 1:56 PM

      Thanks! I was pretty proud of myself for it too! I don't know about veganism, just because I've heard about it but never really looked in depth to it. However, maybe one day I can. I agree that it seems to be helping me control my ED, though b mostly just restrict or fast.

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