I gained .2lbs yesterday, no doubt in food weight. I took laxatives last night and this morning I weighed 1.2lbs less. I am happy, but I still want to lose more.
A friend of mine who used to weigh more than me now weighs less and it's so triggering. I have to be skinnier than her. I have to be.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
Saturday, October 18, 2014
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Hang in there! I'm still always here if you'd like to talk!
ReplyDeleteThanks. Xx
DeleteI understand the feeling, my friend who originally had never weighed below the 120s (this was when I was 115s and trying to get lower) is now less than I am. And I'm the one stuck in the 120s now. Talk about frustrating and disheartening. How's your intake going? Text me, dear, we'll keep each other accountable! XO
ReplyDeleteDefinitely. Xx
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