4 days

Today was a good day, for the most part.
My dad got pissed off because we didn't do anything yesterday.
But we didn't do anything because he didn't want to go anywhere. Why? Because he was pissed at me.
I feel like I'm walking on eggshells with him. He'll say something, and I'll agree. It's the wrong answer and he laughs at me for it. If I disagree, it's still the wrong answer, and he gets pissed at me.
I give up.
I'm gonna go sit on a deck with my headphones and music, and ignore him. I need my sanity.

We went to a volcano, an active one. It was amazing. You could see the lava boiling up, and we got to walk in part of the crater. Turns out, there's like 15 volcanoes on this island... Holy shit.
We also saw where the lava was flowing into the ocean.. It was so cool.
I took lots of pics, but I can't upload them. Stupid people.

I'm basically counting the days till I go home.
I've decided that I start my 5 day liquid fast on Monday, February 4th. That is when we fly out of here, and I get back Tuesday. Then the rest of the week should be pretty easy to fast. I'm hoping I'll drop a little bit of weight, because I've been eating so much here, I hope it's kicked my metabolism up.

I don't even want to get into my family, and what they're doing. Basically, shit.
I feel calmer now that it's close to the end of my time here, and I know that I'll be getting away from my dad soon. Less anxious.
But also, I talked to some people last night, and some things were made clear. Not in a bad way, and it's too long to explain, at least right now. But now I know where I stand with some people. I'd rather that then just not know.

I know that I'm gonna have shit to pay when I get home. I know already that as soon as I set foot in my house, and I'm out of sight of everyone, I'm gonna be SH a lot. I know that. But I'm not telling anyone, really. I don't want anyone to stop me. It'll basically be a release of all the energy that I've been bottling up while here. Which I guess will be a good thing. Though not in a good way.

I hope everyone is doing well, I've been trying to keep up with reading blogs.
Anyways, time to go listen to my tunes. :D
Xxxx