I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

My New years!

I definitely didn't plan it the way it happened out. And I don't know which version you are here to read about. God, I feel so whacky. So I don't know how much sense this post will make. Hopefully, you can at least understand it. So I'll give you the planned version, and the actual version. What you take from them is entirely up to you.

Planned version:
- Sit at home and have a movie marathon/
-Avoid food!!!
-Watch some fireworks, hopefully.
-Avoid food!!
-Possible pull an all nighter.... I mean... Who needs sleep?!!
-Avoid food!!!!

Pretty interesting, isn't it? Ah, well. I promise that the actual version is a little more.... messed up, interesting, stupid, however you choose to view it.

Actual version:
-Go to my aunt's to hang out with her friend.
-Decided I didn't want to go home, and that I would just chill there.
-Watch American Pie, and Bad Teacher. Amazing movies, if you haven't seem them.
-Smoke (weed) for the first time in about 6 months.
- Eat some food, drink some coffee.
- Smoke some more.
-Watch fireworks at midnight!
-Drink some Champagne.
- Smoke some more.
-Finally fall asleep at 3am.

Pretty exciting, isn't it?
Totally not how I planned it to go.
Really.
Judge me for what you will though.

Hope everyone had a good new years!

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