I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Friday, July 26, 2013

My fault

I honestly think it's my own fault that I'm in a bad mood all the time.
I'm a pessimist.
I don't even know how to explain it, but I just know it's my fault. I let things get to me. I think things about myself that I would never have thought possible.
I know what buttons to push until I'm either super suicidal or emotionally fucked up enough to want to cut. I don't allow myself to be happy. I guess.
But nothing comes from this because I don't know how to change it.
It's my fault, and mine to deal with too.
I wish I could just hide from the world.
Soon.
Soon I will.

















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2 comments:

  1. EveJuly 26, 2013 at 5:41 PM

    What you have to do is choose to look at it different. If something negative happens, just assume it will pass or there was a reason for it happening. Always assume you will overcome. Always see a blessing, even if it's small. That's the key. Don't let the tide overtake you. <3

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    1. J (:July 27, 2013 at 1:35 AM

      That's probably harder than it seems, but I have nothing to lose. So it's worth a shot. Thank you. <3

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