I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Friday, April 4, 2014

Goodbye

I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for falling so far down..
When I was supposed to be on top.
For hurting you when you tried to help me..
For taking the dark path.
I'm sorry for not being the perfect child and grandchild you needed.

I tried so hard but even my best wasn't enough.
Some just aren't meant for life.
Survival of the fittest..
And I wasn't it.

Remember who I used to be. Before I lost myself.
My pain is just unbearable and I've tried everything.
I am drowning in the darkness.
And I just couldn't pull myself out.

Why didn't you see? Signs were everywhere.. But I also didn't want you to see..
Don't blame yourself.
Just know that I am in a better place now..
I don't have to hurt anymore.
Maybe I can be happy somewhere else.
I just didn't fit in here..

I'm sorry.. I love you. I have always and will always love you. Believe that, if nothing else... Goodbye.
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