I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Monday, April 14, 2014

Weight loss!

4/10
I've been fasting perfectly lately.
With the commotion in my house and everyone worrying about something, nobody is paying attention to me.

About a week ago I was still stuck at a plateau. But I finally broke through that, and now my weight is just slowly going down.
I've been perfectly empty for so long now, but at the same time it doesn't feel like it.

I'm not sure how long I can keep this up, but the longer the better. I need to be anything but fat. I haven't taken laxies in a while either. But I haven't eaten food. So there would be nothing for my body to digest.. Right?

But.. I might have lost my best friend over my eating disorder.. And I don't know how I feel about that. But maybe if ican keep my eating disorder out of our friendship as much as possible and not be so disordered when I'm around them.. Maybe I can keep this friendship.
We've been best friends for about 6 years now. Almost 7. I'd trust her with my life, if I had to.

But I will not stop losing weight.
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  1. AnonymousApril 17, 2014 at 7:05 AM

    I'm glad to hear you broke your plateau, congratulations! Let's chat about the friend issue, see if we can come up with any ideas. XOXO

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