I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Saturday, June 21, 2014

Hah

My life right now is too perfect. I work, spend time with my boyfriend, and sleep. I'm usually always with my boyfriend except when I am at work, and I love it just because I know he will get tired of me and I want to be with him as much as possible before that happens.

Since I dropped out of school, I hadn't really tried to get my GED. I have been focusing on getting a job and saving for an apartment and didnt have the money for a GED. But I do right now and therefore have been working on getting it. Hmm..

My weight has gone down since I last weighed... But I haven't weighed in a few days.. I haven't had the time or energy to bother, but for selfish reasons. I enjoy making myself anxious because I don't know my weight. That's fucked up and I know it. I'm gonna weigh soon thoigh, I feel like I have gained, but know I have lost.

I think I want to get "What we believe we manifest" tatted on my arm... And I get the chance again on July 1st. Should I? Thoughts might be appreciated...

Speaking of which... Who are my readers still? If anyone? I know I haven't posted so much in a while... But I do wonder if anyone reads my blog. Leave me a comment if you do?

I called my mom earlier, just to talk to her. She asked what I was doing and I told her where I was. She immediately told me I am wasting my life and my time. Wasting my chances, my seconds. She told me I was stupid and said some other stupid shit and then I hung up on her. Aye. >.<

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