Update

This post was supposed to be published about a week or so ago, but I only just realized that it didn't post. So here it is now.

I have no idea what my weight is because it's that time of the month. But I have been relatively good in terms if food.

Todays intake looks like:
1/2 of a nutrigrain bar (80)
Small glass of soda (150?)
Chips (80)
Special K crisps (100)
Total: 410

A lot of that was low in fat or at least had as much protein as it did fat, so im trying to not feel so bad about that. Plus, if I eat nothing else today, that shouldn't be so bad.. Right?

I work 7 hours again today.. From 2 to 9. I don't even want to go today because yesterday was so much bullshit.
I was working drive thru and front counter during a dinner rush last night and there were a lot of cars in the drive thru. I was trying to get food out as fast as I could to keep our times low and the manager on my shift started bitching at me because there were customers in the lobby and I hadn't has a chance to help them yet. After she finished bitching at me for that, she started telling another worker all about who I was and what I was doing wrong.
That's only part of the bullshit, but I will just say that by the end of my shift I was ready to punch her I'm the face. And I get to do it all over again today. Ugh.

I finally moved out of my dads house and into the place I'm renting. I don't really know what to call it, but I guess it's home now. I don't know how to feel about living there. Like am I supposed to just fade into the background and get in the way as little as possible or is there another way I should be going about this? I have so many questions but very little answers. I still don't know if she is gonna make me pay rent or not, but I just don't feel right living in a house that isn't mine without paying whoever to let me live there.

I talked to A the other day, and he said that right after he got to where he was going with his friend, he got stopped and his friend spilled the beans about some stuff that they weren't supposed to have and his friend ended up going to jail. So his whole trip basically got ruined and in about 2 or so days, they are coming back here and staying. Which I guess is good but it sucks that it had to happen that way.

I don't really have much else going on in my life right now, it just feels like a lot I guess. I'm growing up now and I'm not really sure how to go about it. Money is everything in a sense, but at the same time there is so much more to life than money. I haven't quite figured out that balance yet.
So it's just to keep trying to survive until I do, I guess.