Ugh

I guess a lot happened yesterday, and it has changed how everything is.

** A little backstory. Over the past couple weeks, things have gone missing. Change, a credit card, weed, and now cigarettes. However, my boyfriend admitted guilt to it, and apologized and has seriously been trying to make right since then.... I get that we fucked up, but it's the fact that my boyfriend is trying to right the wrong because he is genuinely sorry for what he did.

Yesterday morning, I was woken up by my brother's loud music. When I tried to explain I was still sleeping, he basically said that he doesn't give a fuck and shut his door. That's kind of where it started. Then about an hour later, I asked him if I could buy a filter from him. Granted, we did jack his cigarettes and he has a reason to be angry.... but Damn. Basically my brother said no and I went outside with my bf.
A few minutes later my brother's girlfriend opened the back door and started yelling things like
How dare I ask her for a cigarette
Who did I think I was
I am a fucking thief
Etc
I told her to lower her voice because the neighbors didn't need to hear our business and she got bitchy. We went back downstairs to chill for a minute and breathe and my brother came up to my door and asked my bf if he wanted to go to jail. When my bf said no, my brother said that he needed to get out of his grandparents house because he was coming back with the police. That started an argument and my brother's girlfriend had to put her two cents in.
"How can you love someone who steals from your family?"
That's one of the things she said to me, and when I told her to shut up my brother got all defensive saying that I don't tell his girlfriend to shut up and this, that, and the other. Then my brother threatened to hit me if I didn't shut up and when I told him to do it, he just left. My grandma stepped in trying to mediate, and it's quite funny that she thinks she can stop my brother. She can't. So my boyfriend went out to his car and was sitting there and I guess my brother came out and told him to leave, acting like a thug wanna be gangster like he is.
I was inside talking to my grandparents when that went down, and they were trying to figure out the truth of the situation as well as calm it down. They started asking me a bunch of questions about my bf and whether I really wanted to be with him or not. Of course I do.
I was explaining the truth her and then went leave and when I saw that my bf's car wasn't outside anymore I started crying and slammed the front door. My grandma stood up trying to give me a hug, and I screamed at her not to touch me, look at me, care about me, acknowledge me.... none of it. My grandma looked at me in such a way.... like I broke her heart. Well, she broke mine like a bull in a china shop.

After that my boyfriend and I left, only coming back to pack a few things. I ended up staying with a childhood friend of mine way down South so that I didn't have to go home. That was a big mistake. My best friend came with me, and she fell asleep right away, whereas my bf and I couldn't sleep. We basically sat in his car all night and it's now going on 20 hours since I last slept. I just didn't feel too safe in her house, and neither did my bf. Something about it, I guess.

If the environment at my grandparents proves to be impossible, I am either spending the winter sleeping in my boyfriend's car, or both of us are moving to Missouri. One or the other.
My brother has also been posting things on Facebook about this whole situation, and my mom decided to chip in. When I basically told her to shut the fuck up, she deleted my comment. So in ways it feels like there is no way of conning back from this, not if I stay with my boyfriend.

My family doesn't think I should move out of state, but honestly it's beginning to feel like I have no choice. I can't stay here.
I thought your family was supposed to stick by you no matter what. Obviously I was wrong, because my boyfriend of 6 months and my best friend of 8 years have stuck by me more than my family ever has.
It's fucked up.

So that's pretty much all of the drama fest at my house. I guess I should try to get some sleep... as much as you can when it's 16 degrees outside. Today continues the drama saga... stay tuned.