I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Thursday, January 10, 2013

Random, but excited!!

I feel like I have so much to say, but I don't have the words.
Like I can't even begin to put a sentence together.
I wish someone could read my mind. And just read the things I'm thinking, without me having to say them.
Sometimes it's just hard.

I did get the laxatives yesterday, and they work really well. I feel so much better knowing I have them. It's yet another bad habit I'm indulging in, but hey. I've got so many, what's one more?
I would like to say that I'm weighing myself today, but I don't know.
I need to get a scale of my own, but even that won't happen for a long ass while.

Don't get me wrong, I'm in a good mood. ^_^
I'm at school, and I've already got homework, but I don't mind. This semester is going to be great. I also started my college class today. I'm a bit intimidated by the teacher, and the class. But I will hope for the best.
For once, I don't feel completely negative about it. That's the one thing I hate most about myself, is how negative I can be.
So I'm trying to change it.





I need to stay motivated. So here's my motivation. And some more, but of a different sort.






I can't wait!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D 11 days!!!
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  1. Katie ElizabethJanuary 10, 2013 at 9:07 AM

    I'm so excited for you to go too! And I'm glad that you were able to get the laxies. They do really work. It's amazing how they make you feel. Love you dear.
    XOXO

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    1. J (:January 10, 2013 at 10:33 AM

      They do. I felt so much better this morning. I was kinda surprised. Thanks. I hope you're doing well!

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