I want to be so many things at once. I see fashion things and sometimes I think they're cute and I wish my style was like that, sometimes I see punk/rocker people and I wish I had a style like that, and sometimes I wish I looked like all these different styles. But I can't. I hate my style, but I don't even have one of those. I feel so out of place, so much of everything that I'm nothing, and just left here. I hate this.
I am lost. I'm nowhere but I'm here too. I want my life to be something I love. I want to go to parties and I want to be crazy. I want to meet people but I want to be alone too. I am nowhere, nothing.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
You know, as far as style goes, I think you should just pick what you like. I'm sort of rocker/bohemian. I love dresses and I love band t-shirts. I'm also in the gym about every day and so I wear a lot of shorts and tanks and my running shoes. I love earthy stones like turquoise and I have 21 piercings and 5 tattoos so I just be what I want to. :) style is how you dress yourself and convey yourself in that style. I didn't even truly develop mine until I went to college. One of my friends still wears shark footie pajamas so you can do whatever you want. Your beauty is inside. I love you dear.
ReplyDeleteI guess I must still be developing mine because I haven't found myself yet. Whoever that is. From what I know about you, you're pretty cool. I absolutely love your peircings. Just for the record.
DeleteI can't wait to go to college. That seems to be where everything happens. Maybe that'll be the step I need. Thank you. Love you too, Eve.