I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Tuesday, December 30, 2014

Christmas wasn't too much of a crash and burn scenario. Ate a decent amount, didn't gain too much.
Since Christmas
Everything sucks.

My boyfriend and are fighting more, more things keep crashing down on me.
I cut, I burn, and I starve.
But none of it matters.
I want to get away from here.
I don't even know if I give a fuck anymore.

I am a punching bag. Step right up and make your best shot. That's all I am good for.

Had a job interview today and my bf left without me.
My mom hurled terrible words at me where it hurt most.
None of my friends are around. They all have jobs and lives and no time for me.

So I sit in this house and let all the terrible words and deadly thoughts run rampant inside of me
Until it becomes too much and I pick up a blade.

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1 comment:

  1. Katie ElizabethDecember 31, 2014 at 10:09 AM

    Why are you and A fighting so much? I'm sorry life seems to be shitting all over you. If you were closer or had a way to get up here, I'd love to see you.
    XOXO

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