The kids aren't too bad, except for a few little things. But they're 6th graders, what can I expect? Not too much I guess. I can't wait to do my Arts and Crafts class, as I get to teach it. Tomorrow I get to learn how to teach another class, called Hydrosphere. I suppose i'm excited, but I don't know much about it. It's really pretty here, and not having any technology isn't bad. I'm still excited to go home though, i'm not really meant to be a leader. But it's only the first day, I don't know what the rest of the week holds.
Being a vegetarian here is hard, but I only had to skip one meal. Well, not skip it, but I didn't eat much. And i'm so tired, I have not sat down for more than 5 minutes. It's good though, because it burns a lot of calories, and I can't wait to weigh myself when I get back. But I will admit, it's nice to be not thinking about myself, and to have other things to focus on. My ED is always in the back of my mind though, always. I keep thinking stupid things, and the kids are irritating a little. Nothing I can't handle though.
I don't have much time to breathe... I hate it. But at the same time, it's good. It means i'm busy. Something I need. And getting away from my dad, that's nice too. It'll help clear my head, and though i'm not allowed to run here, I can still be healthy. It's perfect.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
That sounds really great. A chance to get away and think a bit more clearly, without falling into the routine.
ReplyDeleteGlad you're having a good time.
Take care and don't get too tired out.
It is a great chance to think about everything. Thanks for the well wishes.
DeleteI hope you're doing well. I really mean that. I haven't had the chance to ask you how you were doing. How are you?!