I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Saturday, November 8, 2014

Argh

Sometimes I can't believe that I am stuck in this body. I can't believe that I was chosen to live this life,
Sometimes I don't want it.
My anxiety and anger and hatred just build and build.
The way my stomach sticks out over my jeans.
The way I feel like a fucking muffin, because my pants don't stay over my hips.
The sadness and disgust I feel when I ruin yet another pair of pants because I am too fat.
These are my constant feelings. These are the resons I get to upset.
I wish I could unzip my skin and just disappear.
I feel like everything is falling apart and like it is all my fault.
And I hate myself even more.
What did I do to deserve this?
I guess I just exist.

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