Well Done.

Tomorrow is the last day of November.
What have I accomplished?
My goal was to make 145 for the month...  and I weigh in tomorrow... Hoping for the best.
I didn't totally binge on Thanksgiving, so I am proud of myself for that.

Oh, and in a rare moment of positivity - I managed to get TWO job interviews scheduled today. The first is later today at 3, and the second is Monday. Wish me luck!
I have been abusing laxatives again. I know that I shouldn't, but I miss the shaky lightheaded feeling I used to get from them. It's the only concrete proof that I have that my body is starving and getting smaller. My boyfriend doesn't know, and last time he asked about them I told him that I threw them out. I will do what has be done, regardless of what happens to my body.

Spent most of today feeling really sick with flu like symptoms, so at least I didn't have to eat much. I hope I feel better tomorrow, though. I have been shivering all day like I can't get warm, even though my heater is at 85 degrees. Absolutely crazy.

I haven't been to visit my brother in weeks. I miss him dearly. Tomorrow I will be going though, assuming everything goes as planned. If I don't make it tomorrow, I know I am going to absolutely hate myself. I NEED to see him.

ANYWAYS, I will update in the morning with my weight and December goals.