Why???
I have like the worst case of bitchiness to accompany my wonderful time of the month. I didn't think I was going to have it! In fact, I can't remember the last time I had it. Which probably isn't a good thing, but I don't care. I like not having it.
Especially times like these when I have horrible curl-in-a-ball-and-try-not-to-cry cramps and If-you-look-at-me-wrong-I-will-massacre-your-face-with-a-fork bitchiness.
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Plus, when I get cramps, all I want to do is eat. Which I was already not allowing myself to do, since I need to lose weight, and I have Christmas coming up. Ugh.
Can someone just shoot me? I don't need this, I don't want it, I hate it. I can't wait till I lose so much weight that I no longer have to deal with these. I know that isn't healthy, but it is my thoughts. It's how I feel. I will get there one day, but I will also come back. I will recover. Someday. Right now, it's looking to be wayyyyyyyyy in the future.
At least if I feel like puking I won't want to eat! (:
Anyways, rant over. Now I'm going to go bake a cake (that I have no intention of eating.) (:
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
Ugh this sounds miserable sweetie. But baking is always fun. Much love.
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It was alright. I binged. But not bad, and I didn't have too much of a meltdown. I love to cook. I am feeling a lot better today, as well. Thank you for everything, Katie. Xx
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