I just realized... it's been 3 weeks since I last spoke to Cimiron. I don't think I've ever gone this long without talking to him. Ugh.
Usually when I feel like shit, talking to him just brightens everything, makes me feel so much better, about everything, about my life. About me.
Maybe that's just what I need.
I've been so busy studying for finals, and life has been so crazy recently that I just haven't had time. Or I've felt like shit, because of self harming, because I know what I am doing to my body, etc. So I just haven't called him.
I am such a bad girlfriend. I need to pull my head out of my ass. =P
So I fully intend on trying to call him tonight, and have a very nice conversation. If I am happy (like ridiculously happy) then you know it happened. (:
Just a little thought there.
Hope everyone is doing good!
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
If he's a good boyfriend then he understands :)
ReplyDeleteThat is true. Thanks! (: Xx
DeleteI hope it goes well sweetie =)
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Thanks! You're so sweet! Xx
DeleteI hope all goes well hun. xx
ReplyDeleteThanks!
DeleteYou do need to pull your head out of your ass - honestly. If you're emailing him then that's fine but not hearing his voice for three weeks? Doesn't that hurt? I know I can't go two days without talking to my boyfriend so I honestly wonder how you do it.
ReplyDeleteThanks. I needed to hear that. And it hasn't been easy. I just haven't been able to bring myself to talk to him. But I did. I talked. It was the best. I love him soo much! ^_^
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