If today was your last day,
And tomorrow was too late,
would you say goodbye to yesterday?
Would you live each moment like your last,
Leave old pictures in the past,
Donate every dime you have?
- Nickelback
If I wasn't here tomorrow,
Would anybody care?
If my time was up,
I'd want to know,
You were happy I was there.
If I wasn't here tomorrow,
Would anyone lose sleep?
If I wasn't hard and hollow,
Then maybe you'd miss me..
I know I'm a mess,
And I wanna be someone,
Someone I'd like better.
I can never forget,
So don't remind me of it forever.
What if I'd just pulled myself together?
Would it matter at all?
What if i had just tried not to remember,
Would it matter at all?
-Skillet
I know that all of you care about me. Everyone who reads my blog.
I know that.
But I've said it before and I'll say it again. You're wasting your time trying to help me.I'm stubborn, and for whatever reason, I don't want help.
I feel stuck.
No up.
There is no up.
I don't want up.
I want more things to crash around me.
I want everything to break.
I want to destroy myself.
I want to destroy everything around me.
I want nothing to be left standing.
Even myself.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
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