I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Saturday, April 27, 2013

You tried to lie and say I was everything,
I remember when I said I'm nothing without you.
Somehow I found,
A way to get lost in you.
Let me inside,
Let me get close to you,
Change your mind and I'll get lost if you want me to,
Somehow I found,
A way to get lost in you.

You always thought that I left myself open,
But you didn't know I was already broken,
Told myself that it wouldn't be so bad,
But pulling away took everything that I had..
You tried to lie and say I was everything,
I remember when I said I'm nothing without you.
Somehow I found a way to get lost in you,
Let me inside and let me get close to you.
Change your mind and I'll get lost if you want me to,
Cuz somehow I found a way to get lost in you.

The pain of it all,
The rise and the fall,
I see it all in you.
Now everyday,
I find myself sayin',
I want to get lost in you.
I'm nothing without you..

It makes total sense. What am I without you? You've become such a part of it, worked your way into my heart. You've helped me in so many ways.
But what happens when you leave?
What then will I be? That scares me.
I knew who I was before you, but now I have no idea.
I need you, and I hate that. I don't want to need anybody. I shouldn't need anyone.
I refuse to need anyone.
I'm perfectly fine and functional on my own.. Except I'm not.

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