Slow days -_- _-_

It's 10:43 am, and i'm at lunch.
Today is going sooo slow... mehh.
I want to go home. And run. And play with my rifle. I got gloves today, so i'm excited to actually try them out. xD

Oh, and i'm working on that project, so very hard, as you can see. (:

This is basically what i'm doing to pass my time.
Oh, and I saw K today. On Friday, I heard from a friend of hers that she wasn't in school because her mom had punched her, and she had a black eye. This is very possible, because her mom is a bit of a psycho. But I felt bad for her, and I will admit, a little jealous. Which is utterly fucked up.
The reason my friend was suspecting was because she had been lying to cover up why she wasn't in school, and her lies weren't matching up. I feel bad for her if that is really what happened, I mean, nobody deserves that.
But knowing her, she punched her mom back. It's kinda weird, how I feel about this.
I mean, not that I can do anything. She hates me. But whatever.

I'm not going back to the counselor, here at my school. I thought about it, but no. I am not going back. That's the end of that. Plus, these past few days, I haven't really been feeling suicidal. So that's good. I'm glad. It's kinda nice, to be redirecting my energy elsewhere. Into losing weight. Into being perfect. It's still there, the urge. I still have everything I would need if I were to go through with it. I still can. I just... Don't want to, as much right now. I'm.. coping.
Which I guess is good. (: