So.. I'm 18. Finally.
I'm legally an adult, now.
How does that make me feel? I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders.
But I also feel kind of the same.
I'm still me.
Yesterday I didn't really do much for my birthday. My dad and my roommate surprised me with strawberry cake. So I had to eat a small piece.. And tried to purge after but couldn't. Other than that, I had a ham sandwich (thanks to my family) and the rest was coffee and zero cal rockstars. So I'd guess around 600?
I didn't weigh myself this morning. But I'm fasting. Empty.
I had a good day yesterday, despite the food. And now I have a 4 day weekend, and somehow I'm going to enjoy that too.
So that's my update that was supposed to be posted yesterday, but I suck. Happy Valentines day, everyone.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
Happy Birthday, again. =) I can't wait to see you today and spend some time with you.
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