I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Tuesday, February 25, 2014

Laxative Abuse

Well... Yesterday definitely could have been worse.
But again, I'm to fast.
Last night I came across this documentary type video about a girl who had lost over 100 lbs from taking laxies. They were talking about all the damage you do when you take such high amounts of laxies on a regular basis. Katie, you have had side effects from laxies, that I've read about and heard you talk about. I know that all of that should be enough to convince me to stop taking them.. But if anything I don't want to stop. I have a mentality similar to "It won't happen to me" and that's so stupid. It very well could happen to me.

I was just thinking about this because my friend told me yesterday that I need to stop taking so many laxies before I donpeanent damage to myself. But.. When I looked up physical symptoms of laxative abuse, I was already exhibiting two of the signs they talked about.. Though I won't mention them specifically. 

But none of it is enough to make me stop. Maybe it never wil be.. Not unless it kills me.
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  1. Katie ElizabethFebruary 25, 2014 at 8:50 AM

    I wish that I could give you some positive advice, but that would make me a hypricrite. I do know that I've done permanent damage to my body because of them. Just try to stay safe dear.
    XOXO

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