I am so disappointed right now. I started on my 30 Day Challenge, but school has been hell for me, and so therefore I have missed a few days, like two of exercising. I continue to run, but I haven't actually done anything that's on the challenge. I feel like a complete failure with it.
Of course, I know that this doesn't mean I completely failed, just that I need to change it to fit what I'm going through right now, and maybe I can do that. I feel like I'm getting too stressed out over a lot of things, when really I shouldn't worry about them.
I don't know what to do about the Challenge, although I have gained weight since I started, not lost it. -_- So grrrr!!!!!!!!!!
I think I am going to change it and do it in October, but I will keep some of it up and do it now, so that I don't entirely fail. I just had such high hopes for it.
School is hell, I didn't do so well on a Math test, but I re took it and am hoping to get a higher grade. I am stressing about a test on Friday on the Periodic Table for Science, but also about doing Outdoor Lab. I haven't studied as much for my Science test as I should, because all I want to do is read. That's what I'm really horrible about. If I get into a book, then I won't do anything else until I'm finished with it. That's what hurts me a lot during school. Plus I'm on the computer a lot to post/read blogs. Or talk to friends.
Mostly with Outdoor Lab I am scared that I'm not right for who they're looking for, or that I won't do a good job.
Sorry I don't have much time to post today, it's just that I really need to get on my homework, so that I can still have time to run before it's too late. But I don't really want to study the Periodic Table... Who ever does?!?!?!
Today was really nice! I got to sleep in, and then I didn't do much in class, and I have no Math homework as I finished it in Class. :D
Does anyone actually read about my exercise or would anyone like to know about it? I mean, I know people read my blog, but I don't know if there's anybody who actually continuously reads my posts, rather than reads them once and moves on. If you do, what would you like me to post on here to either make it better or something you'd want to read? I am open to any suggestions!
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
I'm reading all your posts now darling. And I'd like to hear about everything. Whatever's just most important to you.
ReplyDeleteI don't mind, I want to read everything, haha.
Aww, why thank you! That means a lot! But if there's anything in particular you'd like to know, just email me! (:
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