Update!

So I've not been able to get on the computer in the last 2 - 3 days. Normally, that wouldn't be a big deal, but it is!!! There has been so much happening, and I needed to write it out!! So I guess this is going to be a really  long post, but there will also be two other posts, for my fitness challenges.

3 days ago.... Hmm.... I spent the night at my friends house, we walked down to Olde Town, and just walked around, enjoying the day. We got some candy, as well as some pizza. I ate both, no big deal. Then the next morning, (Yesterday morning) we went out to breakfast. It was really nice, and I felt kinda pissed off/bitchy even though I don't know why. But like I just felt angry. And I kept constantly needing to get up to go to the bathroom (Not to purge, but to breathe) and part of me I guess was hoping that she'd think to come help me. Or to come see if I was okay. But she never did. So that kinda upset me, but I guess it shouldn't have. I am learning slowly, that there's really nobody here that I can count on for certain things. I know that sounds really depressing, but actually, realizing that, I feel lighter.
I know there are people there I can count on, (Cimiron, Sarah, Izzy, Otis, Alex, etc.) but when it comes to this, I guess I'm on my own. And really, that's not so bad. I kinda prefer it that way. I may be eating more than I want to, I may not be entirely healthy, but hey, I'm okay for now, I can deal. I am who I am, and when I get to where I want to be, then I believe that things will start falling into place.
So then yesterday afternoon, I went to the Taste of Colorado, (A huge music and food festival) and I loved it! I ate some chili cheese fries, tried Lamb, Fried Alligator, Fried Oreo's. I know that none of that is good for me, but hey, I think I deserved it. So now it's back to being healthy for my 30 Day fitness Challenge!

Also when I got home last night, my grandma tried to talk me into going back to my dads, and that ended badly... I'll have to write about it in another post, as there is so much to write.

Today, I am back to my 30 Day Challenge, and I am loving it. (Also something I'll post separately) I don't feel like I'm pushing myself with it, so I might decided to change it, to change the original course of the challenge, as I want to get better, right? But it's going well.
Today, I am just hanging out, enjoying the weather, reading and listening to music. I go back to school tomorrow, and I hate it! But hey, gotta do what you've gotta do. I have a Science test sometime next week, and I'm so completely stressed about it! I am terrified that I'm going to fail it, as I haven't studied as much as I should. And also I've got an Outdoor Lab meeting, and I'm terrified for that as well, considering that I don't do too well with little kids. Jeez. So much to stress about. Anyone have any advice??
Today was supposed to be stress free, but damn. Now that I've written this post, I'm stressing like the world depends on me!!! I have to do good in school this year, to get my GPA back to a 4.0 for college.... AHH!!! Gosh. I guess that's all I've got to say for now, here anyways.

If anyone has any advice, it would be greatly appreciated.