I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Not as hard as it looks!

I went driving today. I don't have my permit yet, but I still went driving on a deserted road, with no other cars around. Well almost.
I did really well, and then we went to a road that had lines, and that was a bit harder, but still! I did REALLY well for my first time ever driving! Not as hard as it looks.
I get to go driving again on Friday, and this time I'm going to learn what is necessary for me to get my permit. (The thing that allows me to drive.) I would have had it by now, but they make everything so complicated.
I don't know why - they just have to use all the technical words. I don't understand it that way, not that I can learn it from a book anyways. I'm the kind of person that has to have it applied. In order to understand it.

So that definitely made my day better, and I can't wait to go again Friday.
Today's been really relaxing, actually. I went almost the whole day without being anxious, or having anxiety attacks. It was so nice.

I've got my therapy appointment tomorrow, as well as guard. I have to get up at 5:30 am. So early!! >.<
Thursday I don't start school until almost 9!! Ugh.
I don't want to go! And then I have guard that night, from 5:30 to 8:30.... It's gonna be a long day.
But on the bright side... it means that I can make up for all the horribleness I've put myself through today. Hopefully more than make up for it.
I'm gonna write about that in another post, because for once I just wanted to be positive. Happy.

So that was my day. I can't believe tomorrow's Thursday. It feels like this week has gone by REALLY fast. Like I've barely had a chance to breathe. It's so stressful, but at the same time, so relaxing. I don't know. I know that's contradictory.
So now, I'm just gonna spend the rest of my lovely night (Or morning for some people) listening to music, and trying to stay happy.

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