Saturday!

God, this week went by so fast. I feel like it shouldn't be a weekend. I don't even remember half of what I did this week, but now it's a weekend, and I'm gonna enjoy that!

I don't have any plans, but I think I'm going to make today a study day/chore day. I feel in that mood. Where I want to move, but don't want to do anything.

Last night. Well last night, I got really mad at a friend of mine.
The only thing I had eaten yesterday was an apple until about 5 pm. Then my dad wanted to go out to eat, which I thought was okay, because I hadn't eaten anything, and hell. I was hungry. So we went to Outback Steakhouse, and I got a wonderful steak! I loved it, it was very good, and something I had noticed later, was that it was 500 calories or less! So not even bad! But the "full" feeling afterwards, left me with a bunch of anxiety and I was so scared I was going to gain the little weight that I had lost back.
I tried talking to a friend about it, just to get some insight, to get my thoughts out, and she just ignored me, ignored how I was feeling. So I ignored her. I hate people like that. I can't stand them.
I want to find one person.. just one.. who doesn't go back on their words, or lie, or leave once they find out what you're going through. Just one person that sticks by you. But maybe I'm dreaming.

Anyways, no negativity!
I am so excited for this weekend and next week! I have 3 days next week, and then about a week for break!!!! I have no idea what I'm going to do, but I'm going to do something! I am looking forward to having a week to just relax, and then I have like 2 -3 weeks of school, and another break, and then a vacation right after that!!! So I'll have a good o' time just enjoying the 80 degree weather while it's only like 20 degrees here!! Muahahaha! :D

I am supposed to talk to my counselor on Wednesday, she said she wanted to discuss my eating habits. The day after she said that, I was terrified. I didn't want to tell her. By that weekend, I was a little less terrified. And here I am a week later, and I just don't think it really matters. Like I don't think it matters what I tell her, I am still going to be doing this for myself. So I guess I'll just answer whatever questions she asks, and go with the flow. I have lost about 2 lbs since then. It's a shame, I know. But it's true. Maybe by Wednesday, I can be at my first goal weight. Not gonna focus on it though, as that usually jinx's it. I'm just gonna go with it and focus on my next break!! :D :D :D

I have been having insane mood swings. Like I'll start my day by being really optimistic, and happy, and energetic. Then about 3 hours later, with no warning or trigger, I'll just feel really tired, and low, and angry, or anxious. Or pissed off. Or all 5. But then I can go back to being normal, or neutral, a few hours later, or I can just get over it and become really happy again. I don't know why, and I don't like/dislike these mood swings, they're just really hard to keep up with.

I need some new music on my Ipod. And I'm having such a hard time finding any good music. On Tuesday, I started missing Taylor Swift, which is odd. I haven't listened to her music in over 3 years? I think. I just didn't and now here I am wanting to listen to it again. Haha :D
But seriously. I need new music!! >.<

Anyways, I'm off to go do my chores and do homework. It wont do itself after all. Woo! (: Today is a good day!