I am me.

I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.

But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.

My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.

This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Lazy day/Study day

I don't know what today is. I don't have any books to read, so then I can just sit, but at the same time, it's a day when I want to do things, when I NEED to do things.

I have no work to do for school, which I guess is a good thing, but I also wish I had something to do, because I hate when I'm bored.
None of my friends can hang out today, and I need something to do.

I've started working with Lovely Bones to drink more water, and to eat healthily, because I went off the deep end yesterday and things got really scary. They've been scary, but this was by far the lowest I've ever gotten. So she helped a lot. We are currently on a challenge to drink at least 3 liters of water a day, and eating once a day or more. It's working really well. I can already feel myself getting more active because I have more water in my diet. I ran a mile yesterday, and I didn't pass out, so that's a bonus.

This came as a result of a promise that I'm going to get extreme if I didn't see any weight loss, because when I weighed myself yesterday, I weight more, so I had gained weight. So I promised that I would get extreme, and she asked me to try this with her for the weekend and if it didn't work, then we could both get extreme.

I promised.

I can do this.
It's a last ditch effort.
I no longer have anything to lose.

So today, I am just going to take it easy, and do what I can. (:
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  1. The Lovely BonesNovember 4, 2012 at 2:01 AM

    I'm proud of you darling. You can do this, you will see results.
    Love you, take care.

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    1. J (:November 5, 2012 at 9:49 AM

      Thanks! That means a lot! Love you too! Stay strong! Xx

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