Do you ever just want to scream? Just scream and scream and let it all out? Scream until there is no voice left, and then scream some more?
Do you ever want to just cut? Just cut because it is better than the pain inside? I don't really have any more places to cut. I need to slow down, and stop cutting so much, but I can't. I feel like I'm drowning in... Whatever. I'm drowning and I just can't get out. This feeling never goes away. That's what people don't understand. They think that it can just go away. But it doesn't. It's not just a state of mind that I get into. It's like a permanent state of being. But it's killing me. I can't do this anymore. No matter WHAT I do, I can't ever fucking do enough.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
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