I had plans to go hang out with my mom today, but those plans failed. I ended up getting an AP Lit and Comp prep book, so that should help me study. But it feels like I don't have time.
I'm frustrated because a friend has my flash drive, and I can't get it from him until 5:30. So basically, not at all. I have no way of getting down there and I'm enough of a burden as it is.
I hate myself. I hate the way I talk. The way I think. I hate the way my legs touch. I hate my body. I hate being a failure. I hate being fat. I hate being stressed, and living in this house, and I hate my roommates dog. I hate how nothing is good enough. I hate that I'm so negative. I hate that I hurt so much.
I hate everything.
I just want to make it all go away.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
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