Insomnia?

What is it with me and not being able to sleep? I honestly tried. But it's now 2am and I have to get up at 6:30 to take a shower and get ready for school.
I'm really hungry, right now. I love this feeling. I feel light as a feather, like I could float away. I'm fasting today too, I hope. More of my day should be spent at school (7am to 3:30pm) so that's less time to eat.
When I lay on my side, I can feel my hipbones and my ribs. I realized that I have a wide ribcage, ugh. I wish it was little. I wish I was little.
I don't know what my weight is right now, and it's killing me. I want to know so badly. But no. I'm still so bloated, and if I weigh myself now, then I will just get pissed. You know when you get the feeling that you can actually feel yourself getting thinner, through starving? Yeah, I have that. But I'm so scared that starving isn't enough. Guess I'll find out in a few days.
I talked to Cimiron last night and he basically made me promise to tell him when I engaged in my "behaviors". Y'know, cutting, laxatives, caffeine pills, my ED habits, suicidal tendencies, etc. So I promised that I would at least try. But I don't know how well that is going to work. He says he wants to help, and that he wants to at least know what's going on, even if he can't stop me. But I feel so much guilt and selfishness over it that I don't know how it will go. I just feel so bad. So guilty. But I guess I'll see.
School in 4 hours... My first day of WarrenTech... Wish me luck!! Maybe I can sleep a little before I have to get up.. But insomnia sucks ass. -_- Happy Tuesday!