My days have pretty much been filled with work, work, work.
I mean, I make some free time, every now and then. But I can't really afford it. Two days ago I cried in front of F, then ran out of his office. I had to face him today, though breifly. Tomorrow I am supposed to spend some time with him filling out applications for college.
I'm scared. Like, rediculously scared. To just face him. I don't trust myself.
My eating has been really up and down, but I'm hoping to have lost when I weigh myself later.
I can't seem to keep any promises, and nothing I ever do seems to be enough.
But I'm trying.
Today is my last day of trying.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
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