I've barely eaten in the last 2 days. Yesterday my intake was 330 (subway sandwich and half an otter pop) and I burned all of that off. Today has been better in that my intake has been 210 (xing energy tea) and like 100 for coffee this morning and like 50 (I ate 3 small french fries) But all day long I've felt shaky and light headed. But I'm not minding. I took lax too, which should help. I've been staying hydrated too, because of the lax. So I'm hoping to be down in my weight by the time I get home tomorrow.
So much shit has gone down today in terms of my life at home. My dad is reporting me as a runaway, and apparently he's still taking me to Amsterdam.. Well maybe. Depends on what happens when I get home. Maybe I'll get stuck in a psych ward. Maybe I won't. At this point, I don't really know.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
Sweetheart, I am sorry you're going through so much shit right now. It's not fair for you to have to deal with your dad's drama. I enjoyed having you up here for the weekend. I miss you already. You know that I am always here for you darling. Love you.
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Thank you Katie. Spending those two days with you were amazing, and I enjoyed myself. Thank you for being there for me. <3 xx
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