When will I ever learn?
PEOPLE DO NOT STICK AROUND. THEY DO NOT KEEP THEIR PROMISES, THEY CAN NOT BE RELIED ON.
Over and over again, I let people in. Over and over again, I get stabbed in the back. I don't know if it's me, or if it's them, but honestly? I'm done trying.
I'm done reaching out to people when I need help.
I'm done admitting I need help.
I'm done bending backwards to help people. To do everything I can to make sure they're happy.
I just can't do it anymore. So fuck it.
I can't.
I don't know.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
people are really self-centered. they won't run through hoops for you all the time because they've got their own shit to deal with. I know how horrible it is because I've got a mother that I can't rely on. It's important for us to let them in just enough but to guard our hearts. You can do it.
ReplyDeleteThey are. But I've grown used to it. It's my own fault that I trusted people again. My own fault that I didn't see where it was headed and stop it before it happened. But I understand it. I cannot be mad.
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Thank you! Xx
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