Insomnia really sucks. Yesterday I fell asleep around 11 and woke up at 4. Today I fell asleep around 10 and couldn't stay asleep. I've finally given up on the notion of sleep and it's 3:30 am.
I had a good day yesterday, I think. I'm unsure how to feel about the whole situation, but it wasn't.. Bad. (:
Since I have basically no classes tomorrow I'm going to deem tomorrow my cleansing day. I also got "grounded" for three days, which is bullshit. It was for a really stupid reason, too. But whatever. It's not like I do anything or have a life anyways.
I had today off of work, and I have tomorrow and Thursday off of work as well. But I work Friday, Saturday, and Sunday. My automatic thoughts when it comes to working is that I hate my job. But I just have to remind myself that I'm at least making money. In roughly 2 weeks I'll be getting my first paycheck and maybe then I'll feel differently about my job. It isn't all that bad, aside from one of the managers. In all honesty, I dislike her because she lied to me and I am a little bit intimidated by her. The other manager I like though.
Anyways, now I'm just rambling. See what happens when I can't sleep but I'm super tired?
I think 3:45 am is a good time to paint my nails, clean my room, and cuddle under my warm blankets. Yeah? So that I shall do. (:
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
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