I stood over my scale this morning, carefully undressing. Ignoring the lightheadedness that threatened to pull me to the ground.
I took a deep breath, and stepped on the scale. What I saw I couldn't believe. So I stepped on it again, and again I got the same number.
My goal for December was to weigh 168 lbs. Still fat, but not as fat as I was. My last recorded weight on December 19th was 171.8. So that means that in 7 days, I lost 5.8 lbs. That's an accomplishment in and of itself!
Todays weight was exactly 166.0. :D
I am so excited for myself, and I'm that much happier that I've got the flu.
I honestly can't believe it. But I'll take it! I fasted yesterday, and I'm fasting today too. My goal for January is 162. I've got 4 lbs to go! I can do this.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
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