Everything I write here just sounds pathetic and stupid.
I remember when my boyfriend told me that I make a big deal out of everything.
I remember when he said that I always have a problem.
I remember several people who just left me behind when they discovered my problems.
When I told them I needed them.
When I tried everything I could do to help them.
Several voices run through my head of people who say I'm too negative. Too depressive. To pessimistic.
People telling me that they "can't deal with me".
My problems are too stupid and shallow, too problematic and complicated for solutions.
I am too stubborn, to stupid, too complicated, too... Whatever.
I'm not fit for this world. I never have been, and I doubt I ever will be.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
No one is ft for another person's world. That's why we have to make our own way and make our own place in it. You can do it, dear. You already are. Things will get easier, xoxo
ReplyDeleteThat is something I will have to see to believe. Xx
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