Day 30: Do you have any saved text messages? If so, who are they from and why do you still have them?

Haha I have a lot of saved text messages.... well okay, not a lot, but enough! Let's see.... I'll just make a list.

There's really only two in my phone right now.
One set is from my friend Alex. She helped me through it the other day when I binged and purged, and couldn't take it. When I hated myself, and pretty much had a meltdown. She talked to me all through the night, and helped me figure some things out and get back on track. She made me realize that if I mess up once, it doesn't meant that i'm Bulimic or Anorexic again, it just means that I have to find the trigger, and accept it. I have to move on, work around it. It was a long conversation, like 111 messages.
I keep it because now in the days following my fuck up, I can read them and remember why I am fighting for recovery, and to be healthy. They remind me that I shouldn't hate myself for messing up. It's just to look at for some inspiration when i'm feeling low about my weight or something for now.

The other person that I have saved text messages from is Cimiron. This is because I can look at them now and they make me smile, when i'm having a bad day. I mean since he lives so far away, It isn't like I can see him every day, so I keep the little things he may say from time to time to give me a reason to smile. It always works. One thing he does without actually trying is that he helps me love myself. I know that sounds really weird, but when i'm having a bad weight day, I just think that he loves me, everything about me.
And if he can love me for everything I am, then I should be able to love myself. And most of the time, thinking about that takes my mind off of whatever it is that i'm stressing about. So they just help me keep a positive attitude, and besides, I love him. So they give me reasons, to smile as does he. (He's the screensaver on my phone and he very much dislikes it. (: But I don't!)