So far today, I've not had one bad thought about myself, or what I've eaten. I haven't been anxious, or upset. I'm just kind of relaxed. I want to plug in my headphones, sing at the top of my lungs, be happy. I don't care about exercising, how much I weigh, how big I am.
I JUST DON"T CARE!! :D
Today is going to be a good day, and I'm gonna enjoy it. It's pretty nice outside, I might go read, or write a letter to my brother. It is getting easier, to have these moments, and I enjoy every one of them. I think life is better for a recovered anorexic than it is for anyone else... Because they have come out of the darkest place you can be, and they have to learn to be okay with themselves. They accept who they are, where as most normal people still can't. Not saying they're better because they were anorexic, just that they have a different point of view.... One I admire so much. I hope that one day I can beat my Bulimia, and be okay with myself.
And today is the first day of my new life. (:
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
Aw, I'm glad you're in such a good mood lovely :) I hope you had a good day! :)
ReplyDeleteI did have a good day! Thank you so much! (:
DeleteDid you have a good day? What all did you do?