I know that i've been kinda stressed out in school, so I haven't really been eating breakfast or lunch... I usually eat a snack after school at like 4, then have lunch at like 7. But today, I can't seem to get full. Or at least to the point where I don't feel really hungry. It's kinda shitty, because thanks to that, i've eaten a lot today. I got home at about 5, and I had some turkey with gravy. Then I waited a half an hour, and ate another serving, since I felt like I was gonna puke. That didn't help. And so now i'm eating a ham sandwich, hopefully then I won't be hungry.
I understand that skipping breakfast and lunch is really bad, and I don't mean to do it, sometimes. So maybe this reaction today is just my bodies way of telling me that it needs more food? I don't know, but I don't particularly like it.
The only things i've eaten today besides that is coffee this morning, and then I had some laffy taffy for "Lunch". And then I was hungry and shaky the rest of the day. It was like a sugar rush, but I don't get those. So i'm trying to feed my body, give it the energy it lost. And I know that all this food sabotaged my diet, and I hate it, because now we're back to being anxious again. What is wrong with this? I didn't eat a whole lot more than I normally do, and besides, my body needed the energy.
Not sure what's going on here.... I wish that I did though. I'm not anxious because of the food, but I still feel kinda nautious..... like I do when I don't eat... Hm.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
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Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
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With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
I think you should get into the routine of eating breakfast & lunch. This, more than likely, will stop something happening like this again. Plus, it could, eventually, lead to things going down hill again. :/ You know yourself that it's wrong to skip the meals :) izzy has a good post about school & eating, I think on her blog living with anorexia. It's pretty recent.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I highly recommend you take up breakfast & lunch again. It'll seriously help :)
That's what i'm looking for. Simple things that are good for you that I can eat in the morning as well as for lunch, without it killing my diet. Do you have any suggestions? I don't want to go down hill again, and i'd love to eat breakfast and lunch, once I find something suitable. (: Thanks for you help!
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