I AM PERFECTLY CAPABLE OF TAKING CARE OF ME, i DON'T NEED HELP, I DON'T NEED YOU TO WORRY ABOUT ME. I CAN DO IT ON MY OWN.
I JUST WANT TO STICK MY HEADPHONES IN AND TELL EVERYONE TO FUCK OFF.
I AM TIRED OF PEOPLE TELLING ME WHAT I SHOULD DO, OR GUILTING ME INTO THINGS. I HAVE MORALS. I KNOW WHAT'S RIGHT. AND I HAVE GOALS. I KNOW HOW TO ACHIEVE THEM BETTER THAN YOU EVER WOULD. I AM OVER DEALING WITH PEOPLE, BECAUSE NOBODY SEEMS TO BE CHILL RIGHT NOW. AT LEAST NOT ANYBODY HERE. AND YOUR STRESS = MY STRESS. I DON'T NEED IT!
YOUR IDEA OF WHAT IS PERFECT, IS MY IDEA OF INSANITY!
I AM TIRED OF FEELING LIKE I HAVE TO GET GOOD GRADES, TELL YOU HAPPY THINGS, OR BE PERFECT ALL THE TIME. RIGHT NOW I WANT TO DO EVERYTHING I CAN IN ORDER TO PISS YOU OFF AND HURT YOU BECAUSE YOU'VE HURT ME AND YOU DON'T EVEN REALIZE IT!!!!
I AM ONLY ONE PERSON. AND I AM 16. DON'T EXPECT ME TO BE PERFECT, TO HAVE IT ALL FIGURED OUT, OR TO EVEN KNOW WHAT I'M SUPPOSED TO DO. I FUCK UP. GET USED TO IT. I AM NOT MAKING A BIG DEAL OUT OF IT LIKE YOU ARE, AND YOUR IDEA OF PERFECTION IS ONLY HURTING ME.
IF YOU DON'T WANT ME HERE ANYMORE, THEN TELL ME. I WILL GO SOMEWHERE ELSE, BUT I CAN'T STAND TO HAVE THE ONE PLACE I THOUGHT I COULD GO TURN INTO SOMETHING WHERE I DON'T EVEN WANT TO COME HOME. IF I WANTED THAT, THEN I COULD JUST MOVE BACK TO MY DADS.
SPEND ONE DAY IN MY HEAD. JUST ONE. I ENCOURAGE YOU. THEN YOU CAN TELL ME DO WHATEVER THE FUCK YOU WANT, AND I'LL DO IT WITH NO HESITATION. BUT FIRST YOU HAVE TO STEP INTO MY SHOES, AND LIVE MY LIFE FOR A DAY.
I CAN GUARANTEE YOU'LL BE RUNNING AWAY LIKE YOU NEVER KNEW ME. YOU DON'T WANT TO LIVE THIS LIFE. GET SOME PERSPECTIVE, AND STOP PUSHING ME.
I
AM
GOOD
ENOUGH
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I
DON'T
NEED
TO
PLEASE
ANYONE
BUT
MYSELF
IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE THAT, THEN I'LL FIND SOMEWHERE ELSE TO LIVE.
I hope you're okay darling. Don't let anybody tell you want to do or who to be. You're already pretty darn amazing.
ReplyDeleteWhy thank you! You are too! I mean, you already know that from my post, but still. I am pretty good, I just had to get that off my chest, to vent a little bit. I hope you are doing good! You are amazing! (:
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