I'm so fat.
I can't stand it.
Things keep happening that prove that I am as fat as I think I am, and I just can't take it anymore.
I want to cut. A lot. I want to starve, to hurt. I hate myself with so much anger and hate that I don't want to pretend anymore. I don't want to pretend to be okay while I die slowly inside. I don't want to wear a mask anymore and lie to everyone around me.
I won't LET anyone be around me. I'm a monster now. I hurt those around me.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
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