I wish today was over.
I went up to my mom's... Because she wanted to hang out. I thought it'd be cool.
Fuck no. We went driving and she yelled at me and was freaking out. She made comments about my weight, she told me I broke her car and legit blamed me for it. I tried to just brush it off, but it's hard. It was like pressure building and finally I just let the tears flow because I couldn't hold them back anymore. I was *pissed*...
It just hasn't been a good day here.
Maybe I shouldn't do anything this weekend. Maybe I should just go back home before it's too late.
I'm tired of people lying to me, too. I mean is it really that hard to be honest? It pisses me off because I try my hardest to be honest with everyone and I feel like therefore people should be honest with me.
But whatever. Fuck everyone. Don't talk to me, don't look at me. Just leave me the fuck alone.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
I was honest with my bf of 2 1/2 years. Now I have no relationship. Ups and downs, eh?
ReplyDeleteYeah, I guess it's all about finding the "right person" but sometimes you just want to give up. Keep going girl, I'm here to talk too if you want. Xx
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