I don't want to talk to anyone today. I don't want to breathe. I don't want to live. I don't want to exist.
I have homework to do, and a lot of it. But I don't want to do any of it. People want to hang out, they want me to be social. I don't want to.
I'm tired of fighting everything. My weight. I'm tired of going in circles.
I'm tired of needing people, when it feels like nobody is there. I'm tired of not being able to relax, or breathe, or be okay.
Everything anyone says to me is taken in a bad way. I hate this.
I hate myself.
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
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