Monday Madness

This whole "being alone" thing... With my dad out of state and everything being up to me... I like it.
I mean, sure I hate walking to the bus stop, because it's like 10 degrees outside. And on some level I hate getting up 50 times a night to let my dogs out. But I like it because then I'm up, and as Ana likes to say "You burn more calories awake, sleep is for the weak."
Needless to say I fell asleep around 1 am, and now it's 5 am and I'm up. On the bright side, it's given me plenty of time to take a shower and exercise!! (:

Feeling stressed about school because there are tests I need to take, work I need to turn in, and I didn't get to work on any of it. Stupid people moving into my house.
Now I get to try to do it all after school... ugh. I don't mean to complain, because it is my fault that none of it got done, but it's just stressful. And I'm so bloated, but that's because I'm hungry. When I get hungry enough, I start to get a little bloated. I don't know why, but I guess I don't mind. Hunger now, results later. Even if it means I'm bloated.
I wish I could keep this motivation all the time, but it's so spotty. Like I might be motivated today, but not tomorrow. Haha.
My dad gets back tomorrow. I think. Or sometime around there. Not sure how I feel about that, because then it'll be back to the routine of trying to hide all my habits. Not that they're that noticeable, but still. When my dad is around, it means food. And food makes me fat. I guess if I can deal with it, then I'll be stronger, eh?

I compete again this Saturday, so it's back to practice for me!! (In all honesty. I can't wait till the season is over...) just because it takes up so much of my time, and I feel like I'm constantly going somewhere and doing something. Keeping busy is good, because then I won't be tempted to eat, but I need my downtime to just breathe.

Surprisingly, I'm not in a bad mood this morning. I'm not in a good mood either, but I just want to kinda chill. I have the feeling of hunger in my stomach, and when I get to school, I'm getting coffee. I know it will have a lot of calories, but I need the pickmeup. I haven't had coffee in forever, and I could use a little caffeine. xD

And with that, I'm off to a long day of school and homework... xD Gotta love my Monday Madness.