I talked to F. Or tried. Soon after I got there, he said he knew about the cutting and that I had cut not too long ago. My silence confirmed that.
As soon as that happened, he said he would have to call my dad and notify him...
And then he had a security guard and a nurse come look at the cut. They said that it looked deep and that it would require further medical attention.
I said bullshit. It wasn't deep and it was only healing. They said it was about 5 - 6 inches long.
Which, by the way, he told my dad when he called him. Now I wait for the fallout. My dad is going to FLIP when I get home.
I wouldn't doubt that he's going through my room right now. Which means I'll have to get more blades later.
But I'm terrified right now.
If you've ever read anything I write about my dad... He's a psycho. He doesn't take things well.
So.. Here's the lesson I learned from this.
TRUST NOBODY. NONE.
If he doesn't kill me later, I might update. I'm sure he will though...
I'm so scared...
I am me.
I am not perfect.
I try to do the best that I can, set goals that I can reach, and do anything to achieve them.
But I've gotten a little lost along the way, and now here I am, struggling with Anorexia, Depression, and Self Harm.
My blog isn't supposed to be a happy place. Or an advice giving place. It's just a place that I can write out all my thoughts, everything I feel, without being judged!
Maybe you'll find solace in my struggles, someone to understand. Maybe you'll find interest in watching my journey through my life, or maybe you'll even take one look at this, and turn away. Every reaction is a lesson, and I am here to learn.
This blog is access into my most private thoughts.
With that being said, enjoy!
With that being said, enjoy!
I'm really sorry this happened hun.. the shit thing is that you're a minor and by law your parents have to know. Only one more year until they don't. Stand your ground. If he's an ass then fight back and tell him you obviously need help he is unwilling to give and unwilling to see you need. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers.
ReplyDeleteYeah, it's insane. I hate it.
Delete9 months until I'm free. Just 9. I have to do this.
Thanks for keeping me in your thoughts. I'll try to update on how it goes. Xx
I'm thinking of you....waiting to hear how it goes...I hope you okay..stay strong!!!
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It went... badly.
DeleteOh god, good luck!
ReplyDeleteHe should have talked to you about it more before calling your dad.
It's done now, so there's no going back. Take a deep breath and be strong like I know you are. It might even turn out to be good in the long run.
And I'm glad you're feeling better about the school thing. An F isn't so bad in the grand scheme of things, especially if it won't matter past high school.
Yeah, you're right. Xx
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